Tag: masking
I remember when I got my crutches for the first time and they were cyan, one of my favorite colors, with black too, and I remember being so excited to use them and then when I did use them people looked at me strange like “what happened to you?” and “do you really need those?” but with their eyes..
*Photo by Rachel Claire on Pexels.com I've written about masking and sensory pain a lot. But there are still things I notice even years after recognizing that I'm autistic. Masking is Subconscious and Pervasive I've been wearing headphones around my neck everytime I go out, even just for in person meetings inside. Recently I was … Continue reading Autistic Unmasking: How to Unlearn Trauma Responses
I think I just realized why autistic burnout is so bad. When autistic people reach their limits, they continue because they know they have to continue to be considered valuable.
*Photo by Negative Space on Pexels.com [CW: ableism/NT misinterpretation] Autistic people get run over, socially speaking, especially in new environments or with new people (and unfortunately it can be with people you know, too). I've been yelled at at least three times by medical professionals, and also by a patient because I failed to close … Continue reading Autistic (and Neurotypical Lack Of) Effort
*Photo by Matheus Bertelli on Pexels.com Part 1: Autistic Burnout - Playing on the Social Field Autistic burnout = I literally can't pretend and devote 90% of my energy to being on your social playing field anymore. Metaphorically, I have to go lie down in the grass because I've played too many games on the … Continue reading Autistic Burnout, “Regression,” and Identity Crisis – #TaketheMaskOff Week 4
And hopefully, we can slowly remind people that we're still human beings, even if we don't look you in the eye, even if we might only whisper or shout, and even when other people act like we are less human than they are.
CW: Gaslighting, self-harm, intrusive thoughts (Long Post, Summary/Conclusion paragraph at the end) This blog post came about after having a dissociation episode after watching Westworld a few nights ago. This post has helped me realize the reason and cause of my dissociation, likely from being an undiagnosed autistic person for 25 years of my life. … Continue reading Autistic Masking, Late Diagnosis, and Dissociation: The Toll It Takes on Autistic Mental Health
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